Hopes on Flames
It was thirteen minutes past midnight. A cold chilly wind gushed through the open half of the window and made him shiver. Unable to sleep, he got up and closed the window firmly. He pulled the curtains to ward off the least speck of light that came from a far away skyscraper. He thoroughly inspected his small one bedroom-kitchen flat and ensured that nothing can wake up his three year old daughter who was fast asleep. Feeling satisfied, he went to bed.
He was feeling uneasy that night. It was not unusual, but that night the intensity of uneasiness was higher than other nights. That night he was thinking about his whole life. How luck had deserted him at every step in his life. How throughout his life he had struggled for every penny. A deadly typhoid during the final year of his college exams made him repeat a whole year. Getting a descent job became almost impossible. His father’s friend gave him one. He married and soon had a beautiful daughter. But peace in life was difficult to find. The recession crept in and he was the first one to lose his job, even though he was the most diligent one. Others had contacts and perhaps were not so naive. He tried very hard to find another one, but it was worse than finding water in Sahara. Someone suggested starting something of his one. He tried, but lost most of his savings in the process. Finally, unable to bear the pain of sitting at home when the whole world was going to work, he settled for a low profile job of working at a Gas station. But expenses were mounting with the rise in prices and the burden of life started appearing unbearable. His friends also stopped providing credit as he was repeatedly defaulting on them. Finally that morning, he heard that the Gas station was on fire. He rushed to the spot. He could not go nearby because of the tremendous heat. Hundreds of people have gathered. Police had cordoned off the area. The traffic was being diverted. The fire-fighters were trying their level best. Everything was on flames. Nearby he saw the owner sitting down on the road with his head bowed down. Ruing over the loss, he was crying “Everything’s finished, everything’s finished”.
That night was the first night of hunger. It was a day without money and night without food. Whatever they had was fed to the little child. He and his wife decided to go to bed without food. He woke up and slowly went to the kitchen. He turned on the knob of the oven. His whole life flashed in front of his eyes as they filled with tears. He felt the futility of battling a life which could not provide the minimum to his child whom he loved so much. He was horrified to think of the day when his daughter would also have to go without food. What a father would he be? The words of the owner echoed in his ears “Everything’s finished, everything’s finished”. After an hour or so, when the whole house reeked of gas, he took the matchbox in his hands. He went to the room and kissed his daughter’s forehead. Taking a last deep breath, with trembling hands he struck the matchstick.







